A vent in the Delirium

People all over the world create delusions around themselves, a persistent false belief held in the face of strong contradictory evidences. In India alone we have 33 crore Gods to choose from, for the 100 crore population; a sort of personalised delusion for everyone. In addition to that there are crores of God men. The social structure is so formed that it makes us oblivious to the delusion. We continously doubt our own abilities, and associate results to the blessings of some higher beings. The degraded self-esteem is what pushes you deeper into the delusion. To quote Douglas Adams - "Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too?" The belief that the world was created by some God and that everything in this world is His creation is fundamentally flawed. If he created everything than who created Him. Putting the creation of everything under the ambit of one entity was to simplify the exp...

The recent gimmick of dividing India's largest state, U.P., into 4 parts though just political drama for cheap electoral gains but still is food for some thought. I am not capable enough to judge the political implications of the divide but would like to analyse how good it is for the people of the country. To begin with the facts, among the worst of our states is UP, Bihar, MP while the best are Kerala, Haryana, Punjab. One of the major hurdles for these states apart from being poorly governed is the sheer size. For any entity managing such diverse and heavely populated land is a big challenge. The only reason of making India a federal state, was to break this vast, diverse land into smaller managable units. To achive this goal we need to divide it into much smaller entities if we feel that it's impossible to govern it efficiently at current scale. There is a lack of uniformity in the way our population is divided. Some states such as Goa, Manipur, Mizoram or Sikkim a...

Habits and Routines form your sub-conscious self and the power of that sub-consciousness is so much more than what we expect it to be. And power has the capacity to surprise and destroy. Our habits and routines is what defines us. It isn't something that we realise but it's how others form opinions about us. Bad habits such as procrastination, smoking, laziness, etc. have an unbelievable power to destroy but it isn't something that you'll realise. These are so deeply imbibed in your personality that you hardly notice them. This absence of any realisation makes you blind to a lot of your weaknesses. It's something that makes you hollow from the inside. It's most of the times the reason why you fail to understand the problem others have with you. Even if you do realise such weaknesses. It's extremely difficult to get over them as they become a part of your personality and getting rid of them is like losing a part of you. Such habits have the power...

In today's materialistic world, being poor is the worst thing that can happen to you. Being educated, being moralistic and being principled amount to almost nothing if you are poor. There are no opportunities to come out of that quagmire. Someone who has been through this and has somehow overcome the mountain of difficulties, would possess incredible amounts of determination, will and belief in his ability. Such talent is rare but often results in producing the greats. Being poor teaches you time management, how to make the most of your time to survive. It teaches you adaptability, how to adjust to the extremes of living conditions. It pushes you to extend your boundries and grow farther. It makes you emotionally and mentally strong. Someone who has been facing defeat after defeat but still gets up everytime to face adds so many facets to his personality. You learn only from your mistakes. If you have never faced defeat, it would be hard to survive. To relate to my own l...

Moving on in life from being a student to an employee. One encounters lots of change. Change that affects almost all spheres of your life. There is a change in your surroundings, in your dialect, in your dressing and in your personality. There are new friends, new ways of having fun, new work hours and a new source of money. The last part is responsible for almost every other change happening around us. Once you start earning money, even if you want to be the same man, you can't. There are expectations. Expections that people have from you and also those that you have from yourself. Then there are dreams and goals and possesiveness associated with that money. You suddenly realise the independence you have but also the responsibility that comes along with it. If we retrace to how the change really began. We'll realise that it all began only because we came out of our shells seeking money. It was the thirst of earning and the social norm that pushed us out of our dens. Ev...

The routines in any of the myriad phases of your life are monotonous. Life moves on a smooth track in a set of routines from morning to bed. The time you rise, the time you go to bed, the same cycle of work everyday. Then suddenly you step out of that monotonous phase to stir everything up and metamorphosise through the painful change. This at the beginning has something new to offer everyday. Slowly but surely this new phase also starts becoming monotonous and life even with all its struggles becomes boring. The aberrant suddenly becomes the usual. Returning home at 9 p.m. Looking after your own clothes. So many other such menial tasks you never knew existed before. All this becomes a part of your life and is a part of your usual day to day job. All these changes made to our lives are irreversible. Recreating the old times is impossible. Even if you go back to the old times, you'll notice everyone else has moved on to a new life. Now you'll have everything that you did...

Life it moves on.......sometimes at a leisurely pace and at others by leaps and bounce. There are phases when it goes through transitions, from home to school...from school to college and from college to corporate. Entering into each phase is difficult and interesting at the same time. There are challenges and opportunities. The sorrows and the delights. At first there is resistance to change but then the change becomes the usual and all that remains are memories. Even as I write this down so many thoughts rush into my mind; Lucknow, College, Tundey, Step-in, Muflis casino, Night outs, NEC, CTC,  CST,  IIHT. All the abbrevations towards the end are testimony to how things are so formal after college. The lives here are sorrounded by fancy abbreviations everywhere and there is a process to get anything done. Here we are living an algo.  When I started writing this blog I was undergoing my training. When I thought life isn't fun anymore, when I was  reminiscing about the past....