A vent in the Delirium

Ask anyone they'll say people change all the time . One moment they'll be your best buddies and the next they will try and stab you; one moment they'll be your lover and the next won't see your face; one moment they'll say they can't live without you and the next they will be living happily with someone else. I would not like to provide a definitive answer because the word is so subjective. People understand different things from change. For some change is the basic rule of nature. If it is so, why is it so painful? But so is death and it is equally painful as well. So, are we humans so naive that we fail to understand the obvious. Is the smartest animal on planet so fragile? For some it is moving on. Moving on is to change slowly. Slowly from a desert to the green pastures. Slowly from one person to another. But it is accompanied by selfishness. We don't realise the impact moving on has on the other person. Moving on is most difficult when it is for...

When you are not writing, it means you're doing a lot and when you get down to writing again, it means you are back to thinking a lot. Thinking was never good for the brains and never will be. Specially when there are so many mixed emotions- Happiness, Nostalgia, Sadness, Anger, Love, Hate, Anxiety, Disappointment. Human mind has it's limits of absorbing emotion. After which it gives way, and everything comes crumbling down. Just as in a smoothie, you mix everything and what you get is a thick consistency of something new. The mind and heart now refuse to understand the new emotion which has emerged. The last few days have got to be the most eventful of all time. There was so much to write about that the silence was only way of expressing them. Having fun with friends one day, playing pool, night outs and then struggling to keep yourself awake during the exam, over hour long conference calls, long chats in the darkness on the night half asleep, eating pizzas, playing ca...

There are situations in life, the catch 22 , which are logical paradoxes arising from a situation in which an individual needs something that can only be acquired by not being in that very situation. What do you choose when you are in a lose-lose situation? The best thing to do would be not to choose anything, but sometimes that isn't an option. There would have been lots of times when you ended up hurting, troubling, annoying someone when you least intended do. These are the times when no one's wrong but it's just the situation. Everything has a different meaning when put in different perspectives. The everyday banter, seems like coerciveness; when you realise that the person was already on the verge of crying and it was you who pulled the trigger. In times when a person is at his/her breaking point, doing nothing has its virtues. There are times when anything that you say has no meanings; it's the clichés which everyone uses. What do you say to a person who ...

Rationality is associated with knowledge, with intelligence, with maturity. But often that rationality is an expression of silliness. If being rational means you limit your dreams, then being rational is something we should never be. If it means leaving behind your emotions, then being rational is inhumane. If you are someone who hates being bonded, being tied behind boundaries then rationality is some silly little thing that does just that to you. It ties you down behind illusionary doors. Behind rituals, behind orthodoxy, behind maturity. Rationality strangles creativity. Creativity needs liberation, liberation from conventions and mundane. To get away from all this you need to move away from the sensibilities which are forced upon us along the way. Forced though education, through learning, through tradition. What is the rationality behind dancing on the streets, eating unhygienic street food, calling a 6" 4' man "chotu". The answer is NONE . And along th...

Writing in this post is probably the most difficult thing. No matter how good you are at expressing yourself, its impossible to express the friendship in words. Maybe this is why I never thought myself to be capable enough of doing our friendship justice. Friendship is about moments, the times spent together doing silly meaningless things. Describing moments is impossible and hence every expression I express in here is incomplete, like that every moment which will be incomplete when we will not be together. Friendship is all about togetherness. The moments just happen when you are together. Friends go beyond individuality, this is why every person will have similar feeling about his friends, which will be different individuals but would have that same qualities. They do stupid things, make your fun, irritate you and never praise you. Friends are all about comfort, the easiness you feel in their presence. The love they never show, is something you always feel. The support they ...

Just pause for a second from your daily life. The life that you are so desperately trying to organise, to make worthy, to make grand. The future plans that you are putting together, the aspiration and the fantasies; put them aside and think about this- "We spend a lot of time trying to organize the world, we build clocks and calendars and we try to predict the weather but what part of our life is truly under our control. What if we choose to exist purely in our reality of our own making, does that render us insane. If that does, isn't that better than a life of despair?" Rationality and irrationality is purely subjective. Also what's better is only a matter of how deeply you apply your thoughts to it. If being happy and content is all that you want in life, then isn't living an insane life in a world of your own, the perfect thing for you. The problem with us is that we don't know what we actually want, and when we do, we hate to accept them and instead...

The most intriguing question that mankind has ever faced is that, what is there after death. The biggest unknown of our life to which no living person has an explanation. I might sound irrational and unscientific in all these statements but give it a thought and all you'll find is emptiness or speculations. It is a black area no matter how many people claim to have been there. The problem arises as we have nothing to define nothingness. If after death there is nothingness than what is it. No answer that you may have is anything but an assumption. Thus all we do is ignore it, not care for it and take it for granted. The most common human tendency is to ignore something which is not visible, something that is known. What if your life after death is 200 years and the deeds you do here are counted for there. This is all fantasy but what if it's true. When the known is absent, there are possibilities abound. This could be just one of them. The way we think is greedy, selfis...