When you are not writing, it means you're doing a lot and when you get down to writing again, it means you are back to thinking a lot. Thinking was never good for the brains and never will be. Specially when there are so many mixed emotions- Happiness, Nostalgia, Sadness, Anger, Love, Hate, Anxiety, Disappointment.
Human mind has it's limits of absorbing emotion. After which it gives way, and everything comes crumbling down.
Just as in a smoothie, you mix everything and what you get is a thick consistency of something new. The mind and heart now refuse to understand the new emotion which has emerged. The last few days have got to be the most eventful of all time. There was so much to write about that the silence was only way of expressing them.
Having fun with friends one day, playing pool, night outs and then struggling to keep yourself awake during the exam, over hour long conference calls, long chats in the darkness on the night half asleep, eating pizzas, playing cards, watching night shows, writing on everyone's shirts, clicking photos and a thousand other things which I can't even remember at this moment(everyone is invited to help me with this) and from there to missing everyone, being alone, headaches, loneliness, nostalgia and silence.
The brain is not responding to these emotions, and there is no restart button. This is why we are humans, the WEAK humans, we don't have a restart button to press when it stops responding. And if there was one, it isn't in our control, some higher power will press it. Memories have the ability to strike late and sudden. You realise later what you missed, the more time it takes, the greater is the nostalgia.
Moving On is an easy thing to say, to write but extremely difficult to do. Specially when you realise where you are moving on to, isn't where you want to be. The worst part about memories is that you never realise what they mean while you are a part of it, you only realise that when you look back and then there is nothing that you can do.
This time; this day, this hour, this minute, this moment is going to be amongst the best of your life. If you have reasons to think otherwise, THINK AGAIN, because it wont come back again. This time, the last days before everyone "moves on" to their new life, is the time of your life. Think about everything you couldn't do till now and think no more, do it and make it possible right away. There is no delaying now; this time won't return. Better that we realise it now and make the best of it. It's either now or a lifetime regret. There is not a lot of time left but whatever you have make the best of it because when everyone leaves, what comes back are only the memories of the good time.
“You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does..."”
brilliantly said!
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